Emotionally Unintelligent

I was reading some of my Interpersonal Communication textbook, and I came across a link to an online test that rates your emotional intelligence (EQ), so I decided to take the test.
Here are my results:
According to your self-report answers, your emotional intelligence is very poor. People who score like you do feel that they have trouble dealing with their own emotions and those of others. They struggle to overcome difficulties in their lives and they are unable to control their moods. It’s hard for them to understand how best to motivate themselves and reach their goals. In addition, they find social interactions quite difficult, for several reasons. They may have trouble allowing themselves to get close with others, finding it difficult to be vulnerable enough to establish intimacy. They also report having trouble offering support to others, likely due to the fact that they do not understand where others are coming from or they lack ideas about how best to help. Perhaps by working on your problem areas, you can become more confident in dealing with your own emotions and those of others.
Haha, for the most part unsurprising :T

listening

So i was over at a friend's house and i was told more than once that in conversations i tend to listen politely but it's obvious that i am not interested in what is being said. I was pretty surprised to hear it, my friend thought it was funny and i wondered if it were really true. Anyways, that kind of stayed in the back of my mind for a while, then yesterday when my boss was trying to talk to me (longest conversation EVARR) i noticed that my vision kept going in and out of focus because i was trying not to zone out so completely that he'd notice. It would have been comical if i weren't so tired of pretending to listen. Then i remembered what my friend had said and concluded that i really often didn't care all that much about the topic of conversations i'm in.. i feel kinda bad that it's that noticeable when i do it though and ashamed that i do it at all -.- meh.

a change in plans..

okay.

there's this scholarship here that i qualified for but never did the paperwork for

i got in contact with my old guidance counselor about it and she called me back today and basically now i might be going to school starting this fall

the scholarship requires that i not take any time off between graduation and starting college (aside from summer) so my counselor told me about a school with open admission that would definitely accept me

so i applied there and called the lady at the school that she talked to and apparently i'll have all my acceptance stuff by the end of the week

it's a lot more affordable than any of the other schools i've been accepted to

..

i've been working with my counselor since 9:30 this morning and finished just about all the necessary paperwork,

i'm still not sure how i feel about all of this, but i've already done all this

haha it just happened so suddenly o.o

the plan

okay, so i didn't get into Duke

apparently there was no room for the people on the waiting list

it's alright though, i sort of expected as much, though i did hope for a miracle lol

i previously applied for the spring semester at a local university

so from here on i'll take the time i have during the summer and fall to save up for a car and car insurance

in the mean time, i'll work on my driving and hopefully (FINALLY) obtain a license, haha

time to grow up

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it's funny because it was my dad's suggestion about the whole car thing

he told me roughly how much i'd need to save .. and i was genuinly surprised

it was the first time i'd ever been offered that kind of freedom

my parents were always so terrified at the thought of me driving that i scared myself out of it too

now it's like they're letting me go a little

lol

and now i want it so badly i can almost taste my music on the breeze of an open window

the pride and satisfaction of getting something that i got all by myself, even if it's probably going to break down more times than it's worth

the power to do what i want and to go where i want when i want

independence sounds so so sweet

and i know it won't last and that makes it even more appealing

haha, yeah.

Work today

Despite the fact that I rammed my elbow into a poor unsuspecting bottle of soysauce (which I did knock over and spill), spilled some leftover udon soup on my shirt, nervous-laughed most of my way through like a bumbling fool, had my cellphone ring while I was bringing food over when IKNOW I put it on vibrate (stupid phone), and actually forgot to bring drinks to 1 of my tables, it's been kind of a fun day so far.. haha..

isn't this amazing!? xD

i like this book..

Her voice is so sweet it's almost ridiculous. It's like strawberry-flavored or something, that voice.

it sounds so pretty *.*

positive thoughts

i deleted my other blog because it was depressing and full of poo.

:D